WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF?

I SHOULD NEVER TAKE SO LONG TO POST!!! I NOW HAVE SO MUCH I WANT TO SAY AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO START!!! I WOULD LIKE TO UPDATE YOU GUYS ON MY DAY TO DAY, BUT DAMNED IF I'M NOT ALWAYS TOO BUSY TO SIGN IN AND DO SO! OK, SO........

I SHALL BEGIN BY SAYING, I HAVE BEEN INDEED ENJOYING MY SUMMER THUS FAR. I'VE BEEN SPENDING A LOT TIME WITH MY FRIENDS. AS WELL AS MY KIDS. WHICH HAS BEEN AWESOME. BEEN HOUSE SHOPPING IN CONNECTICUT...STILL VERY INDECISIVE ABOUT MOVING OUT OF NEW YORK THOUGH. PREPARING FOR MY ROADTRIP/WEEKEND GETAWAY TO MAINE...I LOVE MAINE! IF I COULD AFFORD TO LIVE THERE I SO WOULD! IT'S HARD ENOUGH GETTING MY KIDS TO AGREE WITH A MOVE TO CT, LET ALONE MAINE! LOL. ANYWHO, MY EX HAS BEEN STAYING WITH ME...YEA, I KNOW HOW THAT SOUNDS...BUT SHE'S GOING THROUGH A LOT AND EVENTHOUGH SHE WASN'T THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEEDED HER, I WOULD NEVER USE THAT AGAINST HER AND LEAVE HER OUT IN THE COLD. AS YOU ALL MUST KNOW BY NOW, I LOVE HER TO BITS AND PIECES. I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR HER. ALTHOUGH I MUST ADMIT, SHE IS CRAMPING MY STYLE! LOL. TWICE THIS WEEK SO FAR I COULD HAVE ENDED MY "DROUGHT"...BUT I STAYED HOME TO CHEER HER UP. LET ME NOT MAKE THAT SOUND LIKE I STAYED AGAINST MY WILL. SHE IS MY FAMILY AND MY FAMILY COMES BEFORE EVERYTHING. I HAVE TO ADMIT, THAT BEING WITHOUT SEX AGAIN IS NOT AS HARD AS IT WAS THE LAST TIME I WENT ON A SEX DIET. OH, DON'T GET ME WRONG, IT HAS BEEN QUITE TRYING...BUT I HAVE ALSO BECOME MORE SELECTIVE THAN EVER. THE OLDER I GET, THE LESS I'M WILLING TO SETTLE. I KNOW I'M A GOOD WOMAN. I KNOW WHAT I DESERVE. AND AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE, I WONT ACCEPT ANYTHING LESS THAN THAT. NO, IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH LOOKS. I HAVE NEVER BEEN ABOUT THAT. YES, PHYSICAL ATTRACTION IS IMPORTANT. HOWEVER, U CAN BE PHYSICALLY ATTRACTED TO SOMEONE YOU DON'T FIND PARTICULARLY GOOD LOOKING. ANYWHO, I SHALL DELVE MORE INTO THAT IN ANOTHER POST.
FOR THE MOST PART...I CAN'T COMPLAIN. MY FAMILY IS WELL. WHICH IS ALWAYS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO ME.

YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN?!?!? NOW THAT I SETTLED DOWN FOR THIS POST...I GET A CALL...TAKING A DRIVE AROUND, AND MAYBE SOME DINNER...I WILL CONTINUE THIS HOPEFULLY WHEN I RETURN...

******BESITOS******
~JANE~