SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EVERYONE.....THIS WEEKEND ROCKED! HAD A BLAST AT MY BESTIE'S "WELCOME BACK" GET TOGETHER!!! YUP, SHE WAS GONE A WHOLE WEEK....THAT'S JUST HOW WE DO!!! LOL. GOD FORBID SHE WERE GONE LONGER...WE'D HAVE TO RENT A HALL OR SOME SHIT LMAO! LOTS OF DANCING AND MOST DEFINITELY, LOTS OF DRINKING! DON'T FRET MY PETS, I BEHAVED MYSELF! IT WAS A MUCH NEEDED NIGHT OF LIQUOR AND MUSIC AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, FRIENDS! THEN, STILL HALF OUT OF IT...I SPENT THE FOLLOWING DAY WITH MY FAMILY. IT WAS MY SON'S 15TH BIRTHDAY!!! MY BABY IS A MAN! *SNIFFLE SNIFFLE*.....WE HAD A GREAT TIME. WENT SHOPPING AND OUT TO EAT. EVEN MY MOM CAME ALONG WHICH WAS AWESOME CUZ I HARDLY EVER SEE HER ANYMORE. I LOVE MY MOMMY SOOOOOOO MUCH!!! THEN TODAY, I WAS OFF FROM WORK, AND SPENT IT YET AGAIN WITH MY 2 BOYS AND BEAUTIFUL EX GIRLFRIEND. WE SPENT THE DAY SHOPPING!!! I LOVE THE MALL!!!!!! GOT HOME NEAR MIDNIGHT AND SETTLED IN...FEELING QUITE COZY RIGHT NOW. LIFE IS GOOD! MY WEEK IS PRETTY FULL, SO EXPECT MORE UPDATES....LOL.
AS ALWAYS....
TIL NEXT TIME...
~JANE~
Monday, March 30, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
AY DIOS MIO...
MY BFF IS COMING HOME FROM HER TRIP TO MIAMI TOMORROW...SUFFICE IT TO SAY THAT WE ARE SOOOO GOING TO GET IT IN!!! LOL. THE USUAL SUSPECTS WILL BE IN ATTENDANCE! I CAN'T WAIT! I HAVE A MINOR PROBLEM THOUGH, DON'T KNOW WHICH OF MY "FRIENDS" TO INVITE. LOL. IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVE A READY SUPPLY OF PAPI CHULOS OR MAMI CHULAS HANGING AROUND, BUT I DO HAVE A COUPLE PEOPLE ON THE BACKBURNER. AS YOU ALL KNOW BY NOW. I CAN INVITE "MR. SMITH", WHO IS STILL ONE SEXY ASS MOFO TO ME! I CAN INVITE THE OLD STANDBY, BUT LET'S FACE IT, I GIVE THIS ONE AN INCH AND HE TRIES TO TAKE A FOOT OR TWO!!! AND THEN THERE'S MY YUMMY BABY "Z"...BUT I DOUBT HE'LL DRIVE ALL THE WAY FROM THE BOONIES JUST FOR SOME GET TOGETHER! WHICH SUCKS SWEATY BALLS! CUZ HE IS BY FAR, MY MOST APPEALING CHOICE! YOU KNOW WHAT? I'M GOING FREAKIN SOLO! MIGHT MEET SOMEONE NEW ANYWAYS! LOL....AY QUE ESCANDOLO SENORAS Y SENORES! *WINK WINK* DAMN, BEING SINGLE NEVER FELT SO GOOD!!! WELL....EXCEPT IN THAT ONE DEPARTMENT I'VE BEEN SEVERELY LACKING IN....NOT SO GOOD WHEN IT COMES TO THAT! BUT LET'S FACE IT, I DON'T HAVE TO HAVE A SIGNIFICANT OTHER TO FIX THAT PROBLEM,LOL...SO HERE'S TO ONE HELL OF A SATURDAY NIGHT! I SHALL BRING YOU ALL JUICY GOSSIP FROM THE NIGHT'S EVENTS...CUZ TRUST ME, IT'S ALWAYS SOMETHING AT CASA E'S!!! LMAO...
HASTA LA PROXIMA...
BESOS Y ABRAZOS AMORES...
~JANE~
HASTA LA PROXIMA...
BESOS Y ABRAZOS AMORES...
~JANE~
Thursday, March 26, 2009
MY NEW ADDICTION...
SO I'M TOTALLY ADDICTED 2 TWITTER RIGHT NOW! A FRIEND OF MINE MENTIONED IT TO ME A COUPLE WEEKS BACK SO I DECIDED TO CHECK IT OUT. NEVER THINKING FOR ONE SECOND THAT I WOULD GO ON AFTER MY FIRST TIME VISIT CUZ IT SEEMED SO...CORNY! LOL...WELL FOLKS, I WAS WRONG! I FIND MYSELF WANTING TO CONSTANTLY UPDATE PEOPLE ON "WHAT I'M DOING" LOL. IT SEEMED SUCH A SILLY CONCEPT, BUT HERE I AM GOING BACK N FORTH FROM ONE SITE TO TWITTER TO ANOTHER SITE TO TWITTER...CAN'T HELP MYSELF! IF YOU'VE NEVER CHECKED IT OUT, I SAY GO GIVE IT A LOOK SEE. I'D LIKE TO BELIEVE I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE SO EASILY SEDUCED BY TWITTER! LMAO. BETWEEN THIS, MYSPACE, FACEBOOK N TWITTER...OH AND LET'S NOT FORGET AIM AND BLACKBERRY MESSENGER...IT SEEMS MY HANDS ARE MORE THAN FULL, THEY'RE OVERFLOWING LOL. F*CKIN INTERNET!!!! I HAVE BECOME YET ANOTHER VICTIM TO THE WWW! KONYO! WELL, AT LEAST IT TAKES MY MIND OFF OF NOT GETTING ANY! LMFAO!!! YEA RIGHT!
TIL NEXT TIME MY BABYLUV'S....
***BESOS***
~JANE~
TIL NEXT TIME MY BABYLUV'S....
***BESOS***
~JANE~
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
OH EM FREAKIN GEE.....
I HAVE BEEN ONE EXCITED LITTLE MONKEY ALL DAY!!! A BLAST FROM THE PAST WALKED BACK INTO MY LIFE AND THE BUTTERFLIES I THOUGHT HAD DIED IN MY TUMMY SO LONG AGO, HAVE RETURNED TO REJOICE IN THE SPLENDOR OF SPRING!!!! LOL...2 YEARS IS A LONG TIME TO WAIT FOR THE POTENTIAL LOVE OF YOUR LIFE!!! I'VE BEEN ALL SMILES AND SHOULDER SHRUGS THROUGHTOUT MY DAY. I HAD NO IDEA THIS MAN STILL HAD SUCH AN AFFECT ON ME. BUT AT 34 YEARS OLD, I'M THRILLED TO SAY, I HAVE REGAINED MY "CRUSHING" SKILLS! CUZ JANE IS MOST DEFINITELY CRUSHING ON HER LIL Z! LOL. THEN, TO TOP OFF AN ALREADY AWESOME DAY....I GET GREAT NEWS FROM MY SON'S FATHER (THE DREADED EX HUSBAND)....HE'S DROPPING A RIDICULOUS CUSTODY CASE HE HAD AGAINST ME! APOLOGIZED FOR BEING A MAJOR DICK! AND ALL IS WELL WITH THE WORLD AGAIN! YEA, I'M STILL A RE-VIRGIN, BUT WHO GIVES A FUCK?! NOT I! LMAO. HOWEVER, I ALWAYS FEEL THAT TOO MUCH GOOD MUST BE BALANCED OUT BY SOME BAD SHIT HAPPENING...SO I'M EXPECTING IT TO RAIN DOG PISS SOON...HEY IT IS WHAT IT IS! THANK YOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO BE A COMPLETE DORK AND READING MY CORNY BS! LOL....
AS ALWAYS...
TIL NEXT TIME...
***MUCH LOVE HUGS N KISSES***
~JANE~
AS ALWAYS...
TIL NEXT TIME...
***MUCH LOVE HUGS N KISSES***
~JANE~
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
IT'S BEEN A ROUGH ROAD...
SO....TODAY MARKS MY 6 MONTH ANNIVERSARY....YES PEOPLE, NO SEX FOR 6 MONTHS NOW....I DON'T KNOW WHETHER TO APPLAUD MY RESILIENCE OR WEEP FOR MY SEX DEPRIVED BODY! LOL. I WON'T LIE, I FEEL A SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT WITH THIS NOT SO EASY FEAT! FOR THOSE OF YOU PAYING ATTENTION, I HAD INTENDED ON POSSIBLY LOSING MY NEWFOUND VIRGINITY THIS SATURDAY THAT JUST PASSED....HOWEVER, IT SEEMS THE POWERS THAT BE SAW FIT TO DENY ME THAT MOMENTOUS OCCASION! LMAO. LET'S JUST SAY, MY PLANS FELL THROUGH. NOW DON'T GET ME WRONG, WE HAVE NOT GIVEN UP! WE JUST HAVE TO FIGURE OUT A BETTER WAY TO MEET UP. YOU SEE I HAVE CHILDREN...BOYS AT THAT. I WILL NOT DISRESPECT THEM BY BRINGING JUST ANY MAN TO MY HOUSE! NO MATTER HOW DAMN SEXY AND DESIRABLE THEY ARE TO ME! LOL. THANKFULLY HE RESPECTS THAT. HE DIDN'T EVEN BITCH WHEN I SAID I HAD TO CANCEL! HE WAS SO UNDERSTANDING IT MADE ME WANT HIM MORE! LMAO. WOOOOOOSAAAAAAA.....OK, I'M BETTER.....LOL. WELL, ANYWHOOOO, I HAVE NOT GIVEN UP ON HIM OR MY PLANS TO RE-POP MY CHERRY! SO STAY TUNED VIEWERS! YOU WILL BE HEARING GOOD NEWS FROM ME SOON! I HOPE...LOL
AS ALWAYS...
TIL NEXT TIME...
***BESOS***
~JANE~
AS ALWAYS...
TIL NEXT TIME...
***BESOS***
~JANE~
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
IT'S ALMOST OVER...
MY SELF IMPOSED STATE OF "VIRGINITY" IS ALMOST OVER!!! LMAO. IN JUST UNDER A WEEK I WILL HAVE REGAINED MY "VIRGINAL" STATUS! YES, 4 ME, SIX MONTHS IS MORE THAN ENOUGH TIME TO SAY I HAVE BEEN RE-VIRGINIZED! FUCK WHAT YA HEARD! LOL. BELIEVE ME, THERE HAVE BEEN MORE THAN JUST A COUPLE DUDES TRYING TO END MY NO-SEX STREAK...BUT THEY HAVE ALL FAILED! MWA HA HA!!!! HERE'S THE GLITCH THOUGH, I MAY NOT MAKE IT TIL THE 24TH...MY 6 MONTH ANNIVERSARY...DUE TO THE FACT THAT I SOOOOOOO WANT "MR SMITH"!!!! AND NOW WE HAVE OFFICIALLY MADE PLANS TO MEET UP ON SATURDAY...NOT THE 24TH! LOL...YES, IT WOULD BE NICE TO REACH MY OWN LITTLE MILESTONE, HOWEVER IT WILL BE MUCH NICER TO JUST GIVE IN TO THIS TEMPTATION! HE IS SOOOOO HOT! I DO NOT KNOW YET WHAT I WILL DO. WILL I CAVE AND BE THE WHORE I TRULY WANT TO BE...OR WILL I HIT MY GOAL? STAY TUNED FOLKS...WE SHALL LEARN THE ANSWER TO THESE AND OTHER QUESTIONS IN JUST A FEW SHORT DAYS! WISH ME LUCK! LOL
HASTA LA PROXIMA.....
MUCH LOVE HUGS N KISSES....
~JANe~
HASTA LA PROXIMA.....
MUCH LOVE HUGS N KISSES....
~JANe~
Monday, March 16, 2009
COPY N PASTE OF THE DAY...
LIFE IS GOOD MY BABIES...
EVERYTHING HAPPENS 4 A REASON...I BELIEVE THIS NOW MORE THAN EVER! I HAVE MADE SOME PRETTY LAME ASS MISTAKES IN THE PAST...BUT I HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH FROM EACH N EVERY ONE. I HAVE LEARNED MORE ABOUT MYSELF N WHAT I CAN WITHSTAND THAN I THOUGHT POSSIBLE. PEOPLE WASTE LIFETIMES REACHING 4 SELF REALIZATION...BUT I KNOW WHO I AM, WHAT I WANT, HOW 2 GET IT N MOST IMPORTANTLY...HOW 2 LET GO! LET GO OF THE BS, THE DRAMA, THOSE THAT SEEK 2 BRING U DOWN 2 THEIR LEVEL AND JUST BE ME N BE PRETTY FUCKING HAPPY ABOUT BEING ME! YEA I'VE STOOPED WELL BELOW MY COMFORT LEVEL RECENTLY...BUT BY DOING SO I KNOW JUST HOW HIGH I CAN REACH ALL ON MY OWN. I DON'T NEED NOR HAVE I EVER NEEDED ANY1 2 COMPLETE ME AS A PERSON. THAT WAS 1 OF THE MISTAKES I LEARNED FROM. I HELD ON 2 THIS STUPID SENSE OF "PARTNERSHIP" THAT DIDN'T EXIST. AND 2 B QUITE HONEST, WAS UNNECESSARY! I FELL IN2 THE LOVE N SUPPORT OF SOME1 ELSE CUZ I THOUGHT I COULD NOT MAKE IT ON MY OWN. BEING SO USED 2 ALWAYS HAVING HAD SOME1 BY MY SIDE. WHICH NEARLY CAUSED ME 2 STUMBLE N FALL...THE PAIN OF YET ANOTHER LOSS SO GREAT N SO SOON AFTER THE 1ST WAS UNBEARABLE...OR SO I THOUGHT. CUZ IN THE END, I'M STILL STANDING! I'M STRONGER THAN I EVER WAS. HAPPIER THAN I'VE BEEN IN A LONG TIME AND EXTREMELY PROUD OF THE WOMAN N MOTHER I HAVE BECOME. I WISH I COULD SAY I AM LIVING W/O REGRET, BUT I CAN NOT. MY TURNAROUND WAS MADE POSSIBLE BECAUSE OF A DECISION I DID NOT MAKE ON MY OWN, BUT 1 THAT I ALLOWED SOME1 ELSE 2 MAKE 4 ME...I DO NOT REGRET WHAT I DID, HOWEVER I AM ASHAMED THAT I WOULD ALLOW MYSELF 2 B SO EASILY INFLUENCED. AS I STATED AT THE START OF THIS, I KNOW EVERYTHING HAPPENS 4 A REASON. IT WAS NOT MEANT 2 BE, SO I HAVE LEARNED 2 ACCEPT THAT. I DO, OF COURSE, HAVE MY MOMENTS WHERE I THINK OF THE "WHAT IF'S"...BUT THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS WHAT IF! WHAT'S DONE IS DONE N IT'S WHERE IT BELONGS...IN THE PAST. IT'S FUNNY CUZ THIS BLOG WAS MEANT 4 MYSPACE...BUT I HAVE 2 MANY STALKERS 2 LET THEM GET THIS MUCH OF A GLIMPSE IN2 THE REAL ME...SO I WILL COPY N PASTE N BRING IT 2 BLOGSPOT! LOL...
AS ALWAYS MY BABYLUVS...
TIL NEXT TIME...
~HUGS LOVE N KISSES~
JANe......
EVERYTHING HAPPENS 4 A REASON...I BELIEVE THIS NOW MORE THAN EVER! I HAVE MADE SOME PRETTY LAME ASS MISTAKES IN THE PAST...BUT I HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH FROM EACH N EVERY ONE. I HAVE LEARNED MORE ABOUT MYSELF N WHAT I CAN WITHSTAND THAN I THOUGHT POSSIBLE. PEOPLE WASTE LIFETIMES REACHING 4 SELF REALIZATION...BUT I KNOW WHO I AM, WHAT I WANT, HOW 2 GET IT N MOST IMPORTANTLY...HOW 2 LET GO! LET GO OF THE BS, THE DRAMA, THOSE THAT SEEK 2 BRING U DOWN 2 THEIR LEVEL AND JUST BE ME N BE PRETTY FUCKING HAPPY ABOUT BEING ME! YEA I'VE STOOPED WELL BELOW MY COMFORT LEVEL RECENTLY...BUT BY DOING SO I KNOW JUST HOW HIGH I CAN REACH ALL ON MY OWN. I DON'T NEED NOR HAVE I EVER NEEDED ANY1 2 COMPLETE ME AS A PERSON. THAT WAS 1 OF THE MISTAKES I LEARNED FROM. I HELD ON 2 THIS STUPID SENSE OF "PARTNERSHIP" THAT DIDN'T EXIST. AND 2 B QUITE HONEST, WAS UNNECESSARY! I FELL IN2 THE LOVE N SUPPORT OF SOME1 ELSE CUZ I THOUGHT I COULD NOT MAKE IT ON MY OWN. BEING SO USED 2 ALWAYS HAVING HAD SOME1 BY MY SIDE. WHICH NEARLY CAUSED ME 2 STUMBLE N FALL...THE PAIN OF YET ANOTHER LOSS SO GREAT N SO SOON AFTER THE 1ST WAS UNBEARABLE...OR SO I THOUGHT. CUZ IN THE END, I'M STILL STANDING! I'M STRONGER THAN I EVER WAS. HAPPIER THAN I'VE BEEN IN A LONG TIME AND EXTREMELY PROUD OF THE WOMAN N MOTHER I HAVE BECOME. I WISH I COULD SAY I AM LIVING W/O REGRET, BUT I CAN NOT. MY TURNAROUND WAS MADE POSSIBLE BECAUSE OF A DECISION I DID NOT MAKE ON MY OWN, BUT 1 THAT I ALLOWED SOME1 ELSE 2 MAKE 4 ME...I DO NOT REGRET WHAT I DID, HOWEVER I AM ASHAMED THAT I WOULD ALLOW MYSELF 2 B SO EASILY INFLUENCED. AS I STATED AT THE START OF THIS, I KNOW EVERYTHING HAPPENS 4 A REASON. IT WAS NOT MEANT 2 BE, SO I HAVE LEARNED 2 ACCEPT THAT. I DO, OF COURSE, HAVE MY MOMENTS WHERE I THINK OF THE "WHAT IF'S"...BUT THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS WHAT IF! WHAT'S DONE IS DONE N IT'S WHERE IT BELONGS...IN THE PAST. IT'S FUNNY CUZ THIS BLOG WAS MEANT 4 MYSPACE...BUT I HAVE 2 MANY STALKERS 2 LET THEM GET THIS MUCH OF A GLIMPSE IN2 THE REAL ME...SO I WILL COPY N PASTE N BRING IT 2 BLOGSPOT! LOL...
AS ALWAYS MY BABYLUVS...
TIL NEXT TIME...
~HUGS LOVE N KISSES~
JANe......
Sunday, March 15, 2009
DO'S 'N' DON'TS....
YOU WOULD THINK, WITH ALL I WENT THROUGH, THAT I WOULD HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON WHEN IT COMES TO...HOW SHALL I SAY?...TAKING "NAUGHTY" PICS...WELL, GUESS NOT PEOPLE! LOL. OF COURSE, THE NEWEST PICS ARE JUST OF MYSELF. NOT LIKE, WELL....AY YI YI....ANYWHOOOOO...YEA, SO, MY "FRIEND" KEEPS ASKING ME FOR SOME RATHER CANDID SHOTS AND I CAN'T HELP BUT OBLIGE! HE'S BEEN VERY GENEROUS WITH SENDING ME SOME PRETTY CANDID SHOTS OF HIMSELF, LOL. THE THING IS THIS, HOW DO I KNOW THAT THESE PHOTOS WON'T END UP SOMEWHERE THEY SHOULDN'T BE? I DON'T!!! SO WHY DO I CONTINUE TO ENTERTAIN THIS LITTLE EXHIBITIONIST DYING TO BREAK FREE FROM WITHIN ME? LOL. AGAIN, I DON'T KNOW. ALL I CAN SAY TO THAT IS, I LIKE THE ATTENTION! I LIKE HIM! SO I GUESS WE DON'T ALL LEARN FROM OUR MISTAKES!!! SO IF AND WHEN YOU SEE MY (PRETTY DAMN HOT) BOOBS ON MYSPACE OR YOUTUBE OR EVEN FACEBOOK...LMAO...YOU CAN ALL SAY "I TOLD YOU SO"!!!!
WELL TIL NEXT TIME....
***BESOS***
~JANE~
WELL TIL NEXT TIME....
***BESOS***
~JANE~
Monday, March 9, 2009
BACK ON THE "ME" TRAIN...
IT'S LATE AND I CAN'T SLEEP! I'M ACTUALLY NOT EVEN A LITTLE BIT TIRED! HAD A GREAT NIGHT OUT WITH ONE OF MY HOMIES. CAUGHT UP WITH ALL THE GOSSIP N ALL THAT. IN DOING SO, CATCHING UP THAT IS, I STARTED REALIZING JUST HOW MUCH SHIT I'VE BEEN THROUGH IN THE LAST 6 MONTHS! HOW I'M NOT LOCKED UP IN SOME LOONY BIN BY NOW IS BEYOND ME!!! WORST STILL IS THAT IT'S MORE LIKE THE LAST YEAR! FIRST, I WENT THROUGH A VERY BAD BREAK UP. THEN I STARTED HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH MY FORMER BEST FRIEND...WHO HAPPENS TO HAVE A LIVE IN GIRLFRIEND (WITH WHOM HE HAS A CHILD). WAS THEN CAUGHT BY THIS SAME GIRLFRIEND (VIA INCRIMINATING PHOTOS)...NOT A FUN TIME PEOPLE! BEGAN DATING A COWORKER. WHO WAS GREAT. EXCEPT HE WASN'T MY BEST FRIEND...SO SUFFICE IT TO SAY, IT ENDED BADLY. HAVE PARTAKEN IN A RIDICULOUS WAR OF WORDS WITH MY EX GIRLFRIEND'S CURRENT HONEY...WELL, EX HONEY NOW...AND CURRENTLY DEALING WITH THE WHOLE "ATTRACTION" SITUATION (SEE "ATTRACTION" BLOG). I DON'T EVEN WANT TO ASK "WHAT'S NEXT?" I'M AFRAID I MAY FIND OUT!!! TO TOP IT ALL OFF, I HAVE BEEN PRACTICING CELIBACY FOR THE LAST 5 MONTHS...AGAINST MY DAMN WILL!!! LMAO! BUT BELIEVE ME, THE LIST OF PEOPLE TRYING TO END MY "NO SEX" STREAK IS BECOMING QUITE LARGE! WHICH IS JUST MAKING IT EASIER FOR ME TO SAY NO! IT'S A FUNNY PATH LIFE TAKES US ON SOMETIMES. WHEN I WAS WITH MY GIRLFRIEND, WE WERE CHEATING ON EACH OTHER. WHEN I WAS THE "OTHER WOMAN", I WAS ONLY WITH HIM. AND NOW THAT I'M SINGLE, AND HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO BE WHORING IT UP...I'M ABSTINENT!!! I AM SO FREAKIN BACKWARDS IT'S CRAZY!!! LOL...IT'S FUNNY THOUGH, HOW I DON'T REGRET ONE SINGLE MOMENT OF ANY OF THE BS I'VE BEEN THROUGH. EVERYTHING I'VE DONE AND AM NOT DOING, IS MAKING ME MORE AWARE OF WHO I AM AS A PERSON. AND FOR THE FIRST TIME, IN A LONG TIME, I'M OK WITH WHERE MY LIFE IS GOING. I'M STRONGER AND WISER THAN EVER. SO I THANK ALL OF THE PEOPLE THAT HELPED ME FIND MY WAY BACK TO ME...CHEESY? YES, I KNOW...BUT TRUE...
TIL NEXT TIME...
***BESOS***
~JANE~
TIL NEXT TIME...
***BESOS***
~JANE~
OH WOE IS ME...
RATHER THAN CURSE SOMEONE OUT, I CHOSE TO VENT HERE REALLY QUICKLY...WHY DO I LET MY EX GET TO ME??? SHE'S SOOOO FREAKING CLUELESS! BUT I ALLOW HER TO ANNOY THE SHIT OUT OF ME! (FOR THOSE THAT HAVEN'T PICKED UP ON IT, YES, I AM BISEXUAL) DON'T GET ME WRONG, I LOVE HER TO BITS N PIECES. WE ARE NOT JUST FRIENDS BUT ALSO FAMILY. I FEEL I HAVE BEEN A VERY GOOD FRIEND TO HER CONSIDERING THE CIRCUMSTANCES OF OUR BREAK UP AND OUR CONSEQUENT BATTLES TO SEE WHICH ONE OF US COULD HURT THE OTHER MORE. WHAT PISSES ME OFF MOST ABOUT OUR "FRIENDSHIP" IS THAT, FOR HER PART, IT'S A CONDITIONAL FRIENDSHIP! SHE ONLY CALLS ME WHEN IT'S CONVENIENT FOR HER. OR WHEN SHE NEEDS SOMETHING. BELIEVE ME I DO NOT MIND MOST OF THE TIME. LET'S FACE IT, I WAS WITH HER FOR ALMOST 4 YEARS, I KNOW PRECISELY THE TYPE OF PERSON SHE IS. HOWEVER, EVERY NOW AND THEN IT HITS ME HOW SELFISH SHE IS. LIKE NOW, LOL....DONE VENTING! OFF TO HANG OUT WITH MY HOMIE!
TIL NEXT TIME...
***BESOS***
~JANE~
TIL NEXT TIME...
***BESOS***
~JANE~
ATTRACTION...
WHY DO WE ALWAYS WANT WHAT WE CAN'T HAVE??? OK, SO MAYBE WE CAN HAVE IT, BUT IT WOULD BE WRONG TO ACTIVELY SEEK IT OUT! LOL. WHY ISN'T A CUTE, SWEET, FUNNY, SOMEWHAT INTELLIGENT AND A TOUCH PERVERTED (JUST HOW I LIKE'M LOL) PERSON ENOUGH? WHY IS THE ONE THAT HAS A SIGNIFICANT OTHER JUST SO MUCH MORE APPEALING? SO MUCH MORE SEXY....AYYYYYY OK, HERE'S THE DEAL....SUITOR #1, AWESOME! BUT I HAVE NO PHYSICAL ATTRACTION TO HIM! I DON'T WANT TO...FOR LACK OF A BETTER PHRASE...JUMP HIS BONES! SUITOR #2, ALSO AWESOME! HOWEVER, HE IS TAKEN! HE DOESN'T SEEM TO MIND THAT MINOR GLITCH THO!!! & I DO WANT TO "HOP ON THAT" LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA!!! I'VE NEVER BEEN TOO GOOD WITH THE ROLE OF "THE OTHER WOMAN"...AS ALWAYS, I'D LIKE TO SAY I'VE NEVER PLAYED THAT ROLE BEFORE...BUT THAT WOULD BE A LIE. SOMETIMES YOU CAN NOT HELP WHO YOU FALL FOR. IT IS A TWO WAY STREET, SO THE FAULT WAS NOT ALL MY OWN. SHIT HAPPENS! WITH THAT SAID, I DON'T WANT TO GO THAT ROUTE AGAIN. & IT REALLY SUCKS TRYING TO BE THE BETTER PERSON!!! WORST PART OF THIS IS THAT I WOULD DROP ALL MY WOULD BE SUITORS FOR THE ONE PERSON I SHOULD HAVE NEVER DEALT WITH IN THE 1ST PLACE!!! MY "OTHER WOMAN" SITUATION! YEA, I'M A HOT MESS! BUT I AM AN HONEST ONE. OK, I FEEL A LITTLE BETTER NOW...GUESS I JUST NEEDED TO GET THIS OFF OF MY CHEST. WISH ME LUCK PEOPLE. HOPE I MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION...OR HOPE I CAN DEAL WITH THE CONSEQUENCES OF THE NOT SO RIGHT DECISION.....LMAO
TIL NEXT TIME...
***BESOS***
~JANE~
TIL NEXT TIME...
***BESOS***
~JANE~
Sunday, March 8, 2009
JUST BECAUSE...
IT'S FUNNY HOW SOMETIMES YOU ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE DRAGGED INTO A SITUATION YOU DON'T WANT ANY PART IN. RECENTLY I'VE INDULGED IN A MINOR WAR OF WORDS ON ANOTHER SITE (WHICH I WONT MENTION BY NAME). I WOULD LIKE TO SAY THAT IT'S NOT PART OF MY USUAL NATURE TO ENTERTAIN THE BS OF OTHERS...BUT I'D BE LYING,LOL. FACT IS, I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THE ONE THAT HAS TO HAVE THE LAST LAUGH. MOST IMPORTANTLY, I HAVE ALWAYS HAD TO HAVE THE LAST WORD! AT TIMES, I KNOW I HAVE LOWERED MY MATURITY LEVEL TO "FIGHT BACK" AGAINST THE IGNORANCE OF OTHERS...BUT I DON'T CARE! LOL. IT'S FUN! I KNOW THAT IT'S JUST "WORDS". HOWEVER, I ALSO KNOW HOW MUCH THE TRUTH CAN HURT. I USE THE TRUTH TO MY ADVANTAGE. I LOVE TO WRITE. IT'S THERAPEUTIC, CALMING AND IS PROBABLY THE MAIN REASON I AM NOT INCARCERATED RIGHT NOW! LMAO. THROUGH AN ACQUAINTANCE, I LEARNED ABOUT THIS SITE & DECIDED I SHOULD TRY MY HAND AT NORMAL BLOGGING...NOT THE KIND MEANT PURELY FOR INFLICTING DAMAGE, LOL. I'VE SCORED ENOUGH POINTS ON THAT TYPE OF BLOGGING ALREADY. IT SEEMS AT TIMES THAT MY MIND IS RUNNING RAMPANT WITH IDEAS & JUST THOUGHT AFTER THOUGHT OF THIS , THAT N THE THIRD. SO I WARN ANYONE READING THIS...I SPEAK MY MIND, DON'T PULL ANY PUNCHES...IF YOU'RE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH STRAIGHTFOWARDNESS, THEN I WILL MOST LIKELY OFFEND YOU...I APOLOGIZE IN ADVANCE, FOR NOTHING!!! I AM WHO I AM & WILL CHANGE THAT FOR NOONE...
TIL THE NEXT TIME...
***BESOS***
~JANE~
TIL THE NEXT TIME...
***BESOS***
~JANE~
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