JUST A GLIMPSE....

ISN'T IT CRAZY AND OH SO TRUE THAT WHEN ONE DOOR CLOSES, ANOTHER ONE OPENS? THINGS NEVER REALLY WORK OUT THE WAY YOU EXPECT THEM TO...BUT SOMETIMES, THAT'S A GOOD THING. HARD AS YOU MAY TRY TO PLAN OUT YOUR LIFE, FATE IS ALWAYS THERE TO THROW YOU A CURVE BALL, ISN'T SHE? I TRY TO NOT EVER PLAN ANYTHING...BUT DEEP DOWN, I ALWAYS HOLD THE HOPE THAT THINGS WILL GO IN THE DIRECTION I WANT THEM TO. WHEN THEY DON'T, I KICK AND SCREAM AND THROW REALLY PATHETIC LITTLE TANTRUMS...BUT THEN I GET OVER IT. WHY? BECAUSE EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON! EVENTUALLY YOU COME TO REALIZE THAT EVERY SINGLE INSTANCE, MOMENT, EVENT OR NON EVENT THAT TAKES PLACE THROUGHOUT YOUR LIFE'S JOURNEY HAS GONE EXACTLY THE WAY IT WAS SUPPOSED TO, TO LEAD YOU TOWARDS THE PATH YOU WERE ALWAYS MEANT TO BE ON. I AM NOT A VERY RELIGIOUS PERSON. I WAS RAISED TO BELIEVE CERTAIN THINGS, HOWEVER, I GREW UP AND EVENTUALLY SAW THINGS THROUGH MY OWN EYES...NOT THE EYES OF SOMEONE TAUGHT TO SEE WHAT MY PARENTS SAW. I SEE THE FRAGILITY OF LIFE. I SEE THE PERSON I'VE BECOME. I SEE WHAT MY BODY HELPED TO CREATE (MY CHILDREN). I DON'T QUESTION WHY THINGS ARE WHAT THEY ARE, I ACCEPT THEM AS A FACT OF LIFE. WHEN I GO THROUGH HARD TIMES, I KNOW IT WAS MEANT FOR ME TO GAIN STRENGTH FROM THE EXPERIENCE. NOT GIVE UP AND CRY. ALTHOUGH AT TIMES, IT'S ALL I'VE WANTED TO DO. ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THAT, WHEN I AM SO HAPPY I FEEL MY HEART MAY BURST, I THANK WHOMEVER SAW FIT FOR ME TO EXPERIENCE SUCH BEAUTY. OK, OK....ENOUGH OF THAT...JUST HAD TO SHARE A LIL BIT BUT NOW I'M DONE! LOL

LET'S GET INTO SOME DIRT NOW...I HAVE NOT DISCUSSED MY WACK ASS LOVE LIFE IN QUITE SOME TIME. MAYBE IT'S PARTIALLY TO DO WITH THE FACT THAT IT'S NON-EXISTENT!!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS! I AM WILLING AND QUITE ABLE...BUT THE POSSIBLE SUITORS HAVEN'T REALLY BEEN ON POINT! I WILL SAY THIS, IN THE LAST COUPLE WEEKS, A CERTAIN SOMEONE HAS BEEN MAKING HIS WAY INTO MY LIL WORLD. I HAD HOPED (SEE ABOVE) FOR MORE TIME WITH SOMEONE ELSE THAT I FOUND MYSELF VERY INTERESTED IN...BUT IT DIDN'T WORK OUT. I AM OK WITH THIS...NOW! LOL. AS I HAVE SAID IN THE PAST, I REQUIRE A LOT OF ATTENTION AT TIMES. I LOVE ATTENTION! WHO DOESN'T? AND APPARENTLY, I WASN'T EVEN CLOSE TO BEING ON A LIST OF PRIORITIES FOR DUDE, SOOOOOO...DEAD END REACHED, HOPPED OUT OF THE CAR AND HOOFED IT PEOPLE! I HOPE TO REMAIN FRIENDS THOUGH, THERE GOES THAT WORD "HOPE" AGAIN LOL. ANYWHOOOOO......
THE NEWBIE, YES THAT WILL BE HOW I REFER TO HIM FROM HERE ON OUT, IS ACTUALLY PRETTY DARN COOL. VERY ATTENTIVE, WHICH I LOVE! LOL. SO HERE'S TO WHATEVER THE FUTURE MAY BRING. I MEAN, DAMN PEOPLE! CAN I GET SOME STEADY BUNZ??? I LIKE SEX TOO MUCH TO CONTINUE TO PUT MYSELF IN THESE SITUATIONS! LOL. OH GOD...BUT AM I REALLY READY FOR A REAL RELATIONSHIP??? I DON'T KNOW IF I AM. AND I KNOW THAT'S WHAT THE NEWBIE WANTS. AS SOMEONE TOLD ME RECENTLY...I'M GOING TO LET IT MARINATE. SEE WHAT HAPPENS. NO RUSH.

ANYWAY, I WILL END THIS ONE WITH A SMALL CLIFFHANGER...

TUNE IN NEXT TIME FOR THE CONCLUSION...LOL

HASTA LA PROXIMA

~JANE~

FINALLY...

LAST NIGHT I HAD A NICE LONG CONVERSATION WITH MY EX...AND IT WAS ACTUALLY A GOOD ONE! FOR THE FIRST TIME WE WERE ABLE TO DISCUSS WHAT WENT WRONG WITH US WITHOUT YELLING OR POINTING FINGERS. NOW DON'T GET ME WRONG, WE'VE BEEN VERY GOOD FRIENDS CONSIDERING HOW BADLY OUR RELATIONSHIP ENDED. HOWEVER, WE HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO JUST TALK ABOUT "US" WITHOUT A LOT OF TEARS AND CURSING GETTING IN THE WAY! IT FELT SO GOOD TO KNOW THAT WE ARE BOTH PASSED THE NONSENSE THAT'S BEEN HOLDING US BACK FROM BEING TRUE FRIENDS TO ONE ANOTHER. I LOVE HER DEARLY AND EXPECT HER TO BE IN MY LIFE TIL THE VERY END. SHE IS MY FAMILY. NO MATTER HOW CRAZY THE BITCH IS! LMAO...BUT SERIOUSLY, I VALUE HER FRIENDSHIP MORE THAN I EVER THOUGHT I WOULD. IT WAS SO AWESOME TO BE ABLE TO TALK TO HER ABOUT WHAT'S GOING ON IN MY LIFE WITHOUT EDITING THE MORE GRAPHIC DETAILS...NOT THAT THERE'S MUCH TO TALK ABOUT! LOL. I'M SO CLOSE TO SAINTHOOD IT'S REDONKULOUS! LOL. SPEAKING OF THE TOTAL LACK OF SCANDAL IN MY LIFE...BESIDES SOME HEAVY FLIRTING, I HAVEN'T HAD ANY REAL EXCITEMENT IN MY SO CALLED "LOVE LIFE" IN QUITE SOME TIME. I DON'T KNOW, MAYBE IT'S ME AND MY PICKINESS. MAYBE IT'S "THEM" AND THEIR LACK OF INTEREST IN ME...WHO KNOWS? ALL I KNOW IS, I NEED MORE! I'M A PRETTY COOL CHICK YO! LOL. I'M INDEPENDANT. INTELLIGENT. FUNNY. GUESS I SEE MORE IN MYSELF THAN THEY DO, LOL. WHY DO I SUDDENLY FEEL LIKE I'M ADVERTISING MYSELF LIKE THIS IS EHARMONY OR SOME SHIT?! LMAO. WAIT, THAT'S A DATING THINGY RIGHT? LOL, I DON'T EVEN KNOW! BUT I'M SURE YOU ALL CATCH MY POINT. I'M JUST TIRED OF THE BS. I WANT SOMEONE TO SEE ME FOR WHO I AM, AND JUST KNOW THAT ANYONE THAT EVER LET ME SLIP THROUGH THEIR FINGERS WAS A FUCKING FOOL!!! LOL...IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR? I DON'T THINK IT IS. BEING SINGLE HAS BEEN FUN...BUT IT'S FINALLY TIME TO ALLOW MYSELF TO OPEN UP TO MORE. WE SHALL SEE WHAT HAPPENS I SUPPOSE...

ANYWHO...YA KNOW THE DRILL...

TIL NEXT TIME...

XOXOX
~JANE~

TIME 2 GET BACK IN THE GAME....

SO IT SEEMS I HAVE A PROBLEM...
EVERYTIME I HAVE EVEN A SMALL CONVERSATION WITH ANY OF MY FRIENDS, IT TURNS INTO A DISCUSSION ABOUT MY NON-SEX LIFE! I LOVE MY FRIENDS AND VALUE THEIR ADVICE...BUT I'M QUITE SURE I'LL FIND A HAPPY MEDIUM EVENTUALLY. OK, SO YEA, I WISH I WERE GETTING SOME BUNZ ON A MORE REGULAR BASIS...BUT I WON'T DIE IF I DON'T GET LAID! WELL, I HOPE I WON'T! LMAO. AND I ALSO WISH I WERE MORE CAPABLE OF ONE NIGHT STANDS. BUT THE FACT IS, I'M NOT A ONE NIGHTER TYPE OF CHICK. DO NOT GET ME WRONG...I HAVE HAD 2 ONE NIGHTERS. AND I DON'T SEE ANYTHING WRONG WITH IT. THERE ARE JUST SOME PEOPLE YOU ONLY WANT THAT ONE TIME AND THAT'S COOL. HOWEVER, IT'S NOT A LIFETSYLE I WISH TO ADAPT TO. I DO CURRENTLY HAVE SOMEONE IN MIND TO FILL THE VOID BETWEEN MY THIGHS...LMMFAOOOOO...THAT WAS SO HARLEQUIN ROMANCE! LOVE IT! NO, BUT SERIOUSLY, I GUESS I'M MORE INTO HIM THAN HE IS INTO ME. WHICH IS COOL. I'M NOT EVERYBODY'S CUP OF TEA. THEN I HAVE "MR. SMITH"...OH BOY, THAT'S A HEADACHE WAITING TO HAPPEN! WE'VE "GOTTEN IT IN" TWICE, BOTH TIMES WERE KICK ASS AWESOME!!! BUT...YEA, YOU KNEW THERE WAS A "BUT"...DUDE IS CURRENTLY UNAVAILABLE. I DON'T WANT TO RISK CREATING ANY UNNECESSARY DRAMA. NOW I KNOW SOME OF YOU MAY READ THIS AND THINK "THIS BITCH IS AN EVIL HOMEWRECKER" OR WHATEVER OTHER NONSENSE YOU WISH TO BELIEVE ABOUT ME, SOMEONE YOU MOST PROBABLY HAVE NEVER MET AND KNOW NOTHING ABOUT EXCEPT FOR THE MINOR RAVINGS OF LUNACY I POST HERE...BUT LET'S FACE IT PEOPLE, U ONLY LIVE ONCE! WHY NOT GO FOR IT IF IT'S PRESENTED TO YOU? YOU SEE, I DON'T ACTIVELY SEEK OUT ANYONE. SINGLE, MARRIED OR OTHER! I SUPPOSE THAT'S WHY I GO THROUGH SUCH LONG BOUTS OF SEXLESSNESS!!! LOL. I PUT NO GUNS TO TEMPLES. NOR DO I THROW MY COOCHIE IN ANYBODY'S FACE! SO PEOPLE, IT IS WHAT IT IS! OK, BACK TO MY STORY...LOL...

NOW, I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE MY POCKET ROCKET CAN TAKE!!! SO, NOW THAT THE SUMMER IS HERE, I THINK I WILL BECOME MORE ACTIVE WHEN IT COMES TO FINDING SOME TYPE OF COMPANIONSHIP. HONESTLY SPEAKING, I'M NOT READY FOR A RELATIONSHIP, BUT I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE AN ACTIVE BOOTY CALL OR SOME SHIT GEEZ! LOL. I SAY THIS AS IF I COULDN'T JUST CALL HALF THE NAMES IN MY PHONEBOOK AND DO THAT NOW. BUT WHERE'S THE FUN IN THAT?!? OK OK...I'M GOING TO STOP BITCHING AND MAN THE FUCK UP!!! LOL...I WILL POST ANY UPDATES FOR THOSE THAT ARE INTERESTED IN THE OUTCOME OF MY "BUNZ HUNT" LMAO...

HASTA LA PROXIMA,
COMO SIEMPRE,
***BESITOS Y ABRAZOS***
~JANE~