JUST A GLIMPSE....

ISN'T IT CRAZY AND OH SO TRUE THAT WHEN ONE DOOR CLOSES, ANOTHER ONE OPENS? THINGS NEVER REALLY WORK OUT THE WAY YOU EXPECT THEM TO...BUT SOMETIMES, THAT'S A GOOD THING. HARD AS YOU MAY TRY TO PLAN OUT YOUR LIFE, FATE IS ALWAYS THERE TO THROW YOU A CURVE BALL, ISN'T SHE? I TRY TO NOT EVER PLAN ANYTHING...BUT DEEP DOWN, I ALWAYS HOLD THE HOPE THAT THINGS WILL GO IN THE DIRECTION I WANT THEM TO. WHEN THEY DON'T, I KICK AND SCREAM AND THROW REALLY PATHETIC LITTLE TANTRUMS...BUT THEN I GET OVER IT. WHY? BECAUSE EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON! EVENTUALLY YOU COME TO REALIZE THAT EVERY SINGLE INSTANCE, MOMENT, EVENT OR NON EVENT THAT TAKES PLACE THROUGHOUT YOUR LIFE'S JOURNEY HAS GONE EXACTLY THE WAY IT WAS SUPPOSED TO, TO LEAD YOU TOWARDS THE PATH YOU WERE ALWAYS MEANT TO BE ON. I AM NOT A VERY RELIGIOUS PERSON. I WAS RAISED TO BELIEVE CERTAIN THINGS, HOWEVER, I GREW UP AND EVENTUALLY SAW THINGS THROUGH MY OWN EYES...NOT THE EYES OF SOMEONE TAUGHT TO SEE WHAT MY PARENTS SAW. I SEE THE FRAGILITY OF LIFE. I SEE THE PERSON I'VE BECOME. I SEE WHAT MY BODY HELPED TO CREATE (MY CHILDREN). I DON'T QUESTION WHY THINGS ARE WHAT THEY ARE, I ACCEPT THEM AS A FACT OF LIFE. WHEN I GO THROUGH HARD TIMES, I KNOW IT WAS MEANT FOR ME TO GAIN STRENGTH FROM THE EXPERIENCE. NOT GIVE UP AND CRY. ALTHOUGH AT TIMES, IT'S ALL I'VE WANTED TO DO. ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THAT, WHEN I AM SO HAPPY I FEEL MY HEART MAY BURST, I THANK WHOMEVER SAW FIT FOR ME TO EXPERIENCE SUCH BEAUTY. OK, OK....ENOUGH OF THAT...JUST HAD TO SHARE A LIL BIT BUT NOW I'M DONE! LOL

LET'S GET INTO SOME DIRT NOW...I HAVE NOT DISCUSSED MY WACK ASS LOVE LIFE IN QUITE SOME TIME. MAYBE IT'S PARTIALLY TO DO WITH THE FACT THAT IT'S NON-EXISTENT!!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS! I AM WILLING AND QUITE ABLE...BUT THE POSSIBLE SUITORS HAVEN'T REALLY BEEN ON POINT! I WILL SAY THIS, IN THE LAST COUPLE WEEKS, A CERTAIN SOMEONE HAS BEEN MAKING HIS WAY INTO MY LIL WORLD. I HAD HOPED (SEE ABOVE) FOR MORE TIME WITH SOMEONE ELSE THAT I FOUND MYSELF VERY INTERESTED IN...BUT IT DIDN'T WORK OUT. I AM OK WITH THIS...NOW! LOL. AS I HAVE SAID IN THE PAST, I REQUIRE A LOT OF ATTENTION AT TIMES. I LOVE ATTENTION! WHO DOESN'T? AND APPARENTLY, I WASN'T EVEN CLOSE TO BEING ON A LIST OF PRIORITIES FOR DUDE, SOOOOOO...DEAD END REACHED, HOPPED OUT OF THE CAR AND HOOFED IT PEOPLE! I HOPE TO REMAIN FRIENDS THOUGH, THERE GOES THAT WORD "HOPE" AGAIN LOL. ANYWHOOOOO......
THE NEWBIE, YES THAT WILL BE HOW I REFER TO HIM FROM HERE ON OUT, IS ACTUALLY PRETTY DARN COOL. VERY ATTENTIVE, WHICH I LOVE! LOL. SO HERE'S TO WHATEVER THE FUTURE MAY BRING. I MEAN, DAMN PEOPLE! CAN I GET SOME STEADY BUNZ??? I LIKE SEX TOO MUCH TO CONTINUE TO PUT MYSELF IN THESE SITUATIONS! LOL. OH GOD...BUT AM I REALLY READY FOR A REAL RELATIONSHIP??? I DON'T KNOW IF I AM. AND I KNOW THAT'S WHAT THE NEWBIE WANTS. AS SOMEONE TOLD ME RECENTLY...I'M GOING TO LET IT MARINATE. SEE WHAT HAPPENS. NO RUSH.

ANYWAY, I WILL END THIS ONE WITH A SMALL CLIFFHANGER...

TUNE IN NEXT TIME FOR THE CONCLUSION...LOL

HASTA LA PROXIMA

~JANE~