BEING LULLED INTO A FALSE SENSE OF SECURITY REALLY BITES! I KNOW I DO SHIT TO MYSELF SO I SHOULDN'T REALLY COMPLAIN ABOUT IT, BUT FUCK IF I DON'T WANT TO COMPLAIN ANYWAY!!!
RELATIONSHIPS WILL BE THE TOPIC OF THE DAY...
JUST WHEN YOU THINK YOUR RELATIONSHIP CAN WITHSTAND ANYTHING...THE WORST CASE SCENARIO YOU'VE ALWAYS THOUGHT UP IN THE BACK OF YOUR OVERACTIVE MIND ACTUALLY EFFIN HAPPENS!!! OH YEA, SHIT HAS INDEED HIT THE FAN! OF COURSE I HAVE NO ONE TO BLAME BUT MYSELF, SO AGAIN, HOW UPSET CAN I REALLY GET? WELL FACT IS, I'M PISSED! I'M PISSED BECAUSE I WAS STUPID ENOUGH TO BELIEVE MY DEEPEST DARKEST SECRETS WOULD NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY. OBVIOUSLY THAT WAS ME ON A WHOLE NEW LEVEL OF NAIVE!!! I UNFORTUNATELY THOUGHT THAT IT WOULD NEVER HAVE TO BE FOUND OUT OR DISCUSSED...WHY? WHEN OUR RELATIONSHIP IS SO SOLID? RIGHT? YEA, OK...BS!!! I GUESS A PART OF ME FELT THAT SINCE I NEVER LIED ABOUT CERTAIN EVENTS, IT WOULDN'T BE SUCH A BIG DEAL. YES, I KEPT IT TO MYSELF WHEN I SHOULD HAVE SPOKEN OUT ABOUT IT FROM THE START...BUT AGAIN, WHY? I FELT NO NEED IN PUTTING PAST ISSUES INTO WHAT WAS TURNING INTO A BEAUTIFUL, LOVING "US". I DON'T KNOW, MAYBE I'M TRYING TO JUSTIFY WHAT I FAILED TO MENTION. MAYBE I STILL FEEL LIKE, AT THE TIME, IT WASN'T RELEVANT. HOW WRONG I WAS.
THE OUTCOME AFTER THE WHOLE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH WAS REVEALED? A STRAINED HOME LIFE...AN INSECURE ME...AN INSECURE HER...AND MORE QUESTIONS THAN ANSWERS. I'M TRYING MY BEST TO PUT THIS WHOLE SITUATION BEHIND US. START FRESH. AND FOR THE TIME BEING, IT SEEMS IT'S ALSO WHAT SHE WANTS. BUT OF COURSE MY INSECURITY ISN'T ALLOWING ME TO FULLY BELIEVE THAT. I SEE THE WORST IN EVERYTHING NOW. AND THAT IS SO NOT ME! I'M USUALLY VERY EASYGOING AND CONTENT FOR THE MOST PART WITH MY LIFE. THIS IS ALL REALLY GETTING TO ME. WORST PART IS, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CONTROL IT. MY EMOTIONS, MY ACTIONS, MYSELF IN GENERAL. I'VE NEVER BEEN THE TYPE OF PERSON TO QUESTION MYSELF. SHIT, WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES. NO ONE IS PERFECT. SO WHY AM I STRESSING THIS SO MUCH? CUZ I HURT HER...THAT'S WHY. AND IT'S KILLING ME.
I KNOW WE CAN GET PAST THIS CUZ WE TRULY DO LOVE EACH OTHER. IF SHE DIDN'T LOVE ME, SHE WOULD HAVE WALKED OUT AND JUST SAID "FUCK IT"! IF I DIDN'T LOVE HER, I'D LET HER GO...BUT NEITHER OF US HAS GONE THAT ROUTE. WHICH I'M GUESSING IS A SIGN WE CAN GET THROUGH THIS. I'M HOPING IT IS ANYWAY.
UGH ANYWHO...I JUST NEEDED TO VENT A BIT. TIRED OF BORING MY FRIENDS WITH THE DRAMA THAT IS MY LIFE AT PRESENT TIME. LOL...
TIL NEXT TIME, AS ALWAYS...BESOS N HUGS
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
DROPPING IN....
FOR A QUICK HELLO...I AM QUITE DETERMINED TO STAY ON TOP OF UPDATING HERE. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY. I SUPPOSE THIS IS BECOMING A FORM OF THERAPY FOR ME. A RELEASE OF SORTS. CUZ TO BE PERFECTLY HONEST, SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO GUT SOMEBODY...BUT I TAKE A BREATHER AND WOOSAA A LIL BIT, LOL. PLUS, I KNOW FOR DAMN SURE THAT I NEED AN OUTLET FOR THE SOMETIMES IRRITATING ASPECTS OF LIVING WITH SOMEONE NEW...OH DID I NOT MENTION, MY GIRLFRIEND HAS OFFICIALLY MOVED IN. I'M SUPER HAPPY ABOUT THIS. ALTHOUGH I AM SIMULTANEOUSLY SCARED TO DEATH! LOL...
I KNOW IT'S A COMMON LESBIAN THING...MOVING IN TOGETHER AT THE SPEED OF LIGHT AND ISH. BUT I DON'T FEEL THAT WAY WITH MY YUMMY HUNNY BUNNY...I'VE KNOWN HER FOR ALMOST 6 YEARS. IT'S NOT LIKE WE JUST MET. AND TO BE HONEST, I FELT READY FOR THIS. I BELIEVE SHE DID AS WELL. IT WASN'T EVEN A REAL DISCUSSION, WE JUST MADE THE MOVE HAPPEN. WHICH WAS KIND OF AWESOME. I'VE NEVER BEEN IN SUCH AN EASY RELATIONSHIP. WE BOTH GENUINELY RESPECT AND LOVE EACH OTHER. I KNOW I KOW, I'M GETTING ODEEE QUEER AGAIN, SORRY LOL...
ANYWHO, I'M SLACKING OFF AT WORK RIGHT NOW, TIME TO GET BACK ON MY GRIND! WILL BE BACK IN TOUCH SOON THO ;-) TIL THEN MY LOVERLIES...MUCHO AMOR Y BESITOS
I KNOW IT'S A COMMON LESBIAN THING...MOVING IN TOGETHER AT THE SPEED OF LIGHT AND ISH. BUT I DON'T FEEL THAT WAY WITH MY YUMMY HUNNY BUNNY...I'VE KNOWN HER FOR ALMOST 6 YEARS. IT'S NOT LIKE WE JUST MET. AND TO BE HONEST, I FELT READY FOR THIS. I BELIEVE SHE DID AS WELL. IT WASN'T EVEN A REAL DISCUSSION, WE JUST MADE THE MOVE HAPPEN. WHICH WAS KIND OF AWESOME. I'VE NEVER BEEN IN SUCH AN EASY RELATIONSHIP. WE BOTH GENUINELY RESPECT AND LOVE EACH OTHER. I KNOW I KOW, I'M GETTING ODEEE QUEER AGAIN, SORRY LOL...
ANYWHO, I'M SLACKING OFF AT WORK RIGHT NOW, TIME TO GET BACK ON MY GRIND! WILL BE BACK IN TOUCH SOON THO ;-) TIL THEN MY LOVERLIES...MUCHO AMOR Y BESITOS
Thursday, September 23, 2010
HOLA MI GENTE...
SO I'M HERE AT WORK AND IT'S SUCKING MAJOR BALLAGE BUT IT'S A PAYCHECK SO CAN'T BITCH TOO MUCH ABOUT IT...
WAS KIND OF FEELING THE NEED TO VENT A BIT...HAD A LIL DISAGREEMENT WITH THE HUNNY BUNNY LAST NIGHT...LET'S JUST SAY IT WAS OVER SOME PIX SHE SHOULD NOT HAVE STORED IN HER PHONE. SUFFICE IT TO SAY, I WAS PISSED. YES, I WAS WRONG, I VIOLATED HER PRIVACY. I SHOULD NEVER HAVE CHECKED HER PHONE. I'M NOT THAT TYPE OF PERSON. I DON'T LOOK FOR THINGS I'M NOT READY TO FIND...TRUST ME! NOT THAT I'M ON SOME 'DON'T ASK DON'T TELL' TYPE KICK...BUT I ALLOWED MYSELF TO GET HIGHLY UPSET OVER OLD PIX...I AM OVER IT NOW. HOWEVER, I KNOW MYSELF, I MAY TRY AND BE MISS I SPY AGAIN AND I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT PERSON. SO WHAT I'M REALLY SAYING IS, I DON'T TRUST MYSELF TO NOT BE NOSY LOL. HEY, AT LEAST GIVE ME THE BROWNIE POINTS FOR HONESTY HERE, LOL...
EITHER WAY, WE'VE TALKED THINGS OUT AFTER A VERY ROUGH, SLEEPLESS NIGHT. I DON'T LIKE GOING TO SLEEP ANGRY, GUESS THAT'S WHY I DIDN'T GET TO SLEEP TIL ALMOST 8AM!!! THANKFULLY I DIDN'T HAVE TO BE AT WORK TIL 1:30PM TODAY. AND YES, I AM OVER WHAT I SAW...BUT I AM NOT COMPLETELY OVER HER REACTION TO THE WHOLE SITUATION...SHE DID EXACTLY WHAT I THOUGHT, NO, KNEW SHE WOULD DO! LASHED OUT IN ANGER ABOUT THE FACT I LOOKED THROUGH HER PHOTO ALBUM RATHER THAN UNDERSTAND WHY I WAS SO HURT. SHE GOT IT EVENTUALLY, BUT F*CK MAN! GIVE ME A BREAK! I HAVE NEVER DONE THIS BEFORE! EVERYONE IS ALLOWED THEIR MISTAKES...INCLUDING HER AND HER MILLION AND ONE PIX OF HER EX STILL STORED IN THAT DAMN PHONE!!! UGH, I DIGRESS...LOL
WE CAN GET ONE THING STRAIGHT, I AM TRUSTING, NOT NAIVE! SO DON'T PLAY ME FOR A FOOL, EVER! WITH THAT SAID...I CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME AND CUDDLE TIL I KNOCK THE HECK OUT IN HER ARMS. AFTER ALL, SHE IS MY YUMMY HUNNY BUNNY AND I LOVE HER TO BITS AND PIECES...ANYWAY, SHE NOW KNOWS HOW IT FEELS TO BE ON THE WRONG END OF JANE'S 'TUDE, SHE WON'T LET IT HAPPEN AGAIN. I'M SUPER SURE! LMAO
ANYWHOOOOOOO MY LOVERLIES, BACK TO WORK FOR THIS CHICA! HOPE YOU ALL ENJOY YOUR EVENING AND DON'T THINK I'M A TOTAL NUTJOB ;-) TIL NEXT TIME...HUGS N KISSES...
WAS KIND OF FEELING THE NEED TO VENT A BIT...HAD A LIL DISAGREEMENT WITH THE HUNNY BUNNY LAST NIGHT...LET'S JUST SAY IT WAS OVER SOME PIX SHE SHOULD NOT HAVE STORED IN HER PHONE. SUFFICE IT TO SAY, I WAS PISSED. YES, I WAS WRONG, I VIOLATED HER PRIVACY. I SHOULD NEVER HAVE CHECKED HER PHONE. I'M NOT THAT TYPE OF PERSON. I DON'T LOOK FOR THINGS I'M NOT READY TO FIND...TRUST ME! NOT THAT I'M ON SOME 'DON'T ASK DON'T TELL' TYPE KICK...BUT I ALLOWED MYSELF TO GET HIGHLY UPSET OVER OLD PIX...I AM OVER IT NOW. HOWEVER, I KNOW MYSELF, I MAY TRY AND BE MISS I SPY AGAIN AND I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT PERSON. SO WHAT I'M REALLY SAYING IS, I DON'T TRUST MYSELF TO NOT BE NOSY LOL. HEY, AT LEAST GIVE ME THE BROWNIE POINTS FOR HONESTY HERE, LOL...
EITHER WAY, WE'VE TALKED THINGS OUT AFTER A VERY ROUGH, SLEEPLESS NIGHT. I DON'T LIKE GOING TO SLEEP ANGRY, GUESS THAT'S WHY I DIDN'T GET TO SLEEP TIL ALMOST 8AM!!! THANKFULLY I DIDN'T HAVE TO BE AT WORK TIL 1:30PM TODAY. AND YES, I AM OVER WHAT I SAW...BUT I AM NOT COMPLETELY OVER HER REACTION TO THE WHOLE SITUATION...SHE DID EXACTLY WHAT I THOUGHT, NO, KNEW SHE WOULD DO! LASHED OUT IN ANGER ABOUT THE FACT I LOOKED THROUGH HER PHOTO ALBUM RATHER THAN UNDERSTAND WHY I WAS SO HURT. SHE GOT IT EVENTUALLY, BUT F*CK MAN! GIVE ME A BREAK! I HAVE NEVER DONE THIS BEFORE! EVERYONE IS ALLOWED THEIR MISTAKES...INCLUDING HER AND HER MILLION AND ONE PIX OF HER EX STILL STORED IN THAT DAMN PHONE!!! UGH, I DIGRESS...LOL
WE CAN GET ONE THING STRAIGHT, I AM TRUSTING, NOT NAIVE! SO DON'T PLAY ME FOR A FOOL, EVER! WITH THAT SAID...I CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME AND CUDDLE TIL I KNOCK THE HECK OUT IN HER ARMS. AFTER ALL, SHE IS MY YUMMY HUNNY BUNNY AND I LOVE HER TO BITS AND PIECES...ANYWAY, SHE NOW KNOWS HOW IT FEELS TO BE ON THE WRONG END OF JANE'S 'TUDE, SHE WON'T LET IT HAPPEN AGAIN. I'M SUPER SURE! LMAO
ANYWHOOOOOOO MY LOVERLIES, BACK TO WORK FOR THIS CHICA! HOPE YOU ALL ENJOY YOUR EVENING AND DON'T THINK I'M A TOTAL NUTJOB ;-) TIL NEXT TIME...HUGS N KISSES...
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
IT HAS INDEED BEEN A LONG WHILE...
IT FEELS SOOOOO GOOOOD TO BE BACK...LOL...
WELL, WELL, WELL...SEEMS I'VE BEEN M.I.A. FOR MUCH TOO LONG. HOW THE WORLD AND I HAVE CHANGED SINCE LAST I POSTED! LET ME START BY SAYING, HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO....LOL
SO ALTHOUGH I HAVE BEEN GONE, PLEASE KNOW, MY LIFE HASN'T STOPPED BEING LIVED. SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED IN LA VIDA JANE. FOR ONE, I AM CURRENTLY HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE AND IN A BEAUTIFUL, LOVING AND VERY SEXUALLY ACTIVE, COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP! PHEW, THAT WAS A MOUTHFUL LOL...BUT IT'S TRUE...WE'VE BEEN DATING SINCE END OF FEBRUARY, BEGINNING OF MARCH...AND BECAME OFFICIAL IN JULY...I LOVE HER LIKE A FAT CHICK LOVES CHOCOLATE!!! AND I'M A FAT CHICK SO TAKE MY WORD FOR IT, WE LOVE CHOCOLATE! LOL.
I KNOW THAT NOBODY GIVES A CRAP ABOUT PEOPLE IN GOOD RELATIONSHIPS, ALL ANYBODY WANTS TO HEAR ABOUT IS THE DRAMA AND THE CHAOS SURROUNDING OTHER PEOPLE'S LIVES BECAUSE IT MAKES THEM FEEL BETTER ABOUT THEMSELVES. HOWEVER, THE FACT IS, I'M IN A TERRIFIC RELATIONSHIP. IT TOOK ME A VERY LONG TIME TO SAY THAT. SHIT, I DON'T THINK I'VE EVER SAID IT ABOUT ANY RELATIONSHIP I'VE BEEN IN (WELL, AFTER THE 1ST 4 MONTHS THAT IS, EVERYONE KNOWS THAT'S THE HONEYMOON TIME FRAME) THUS FAR. SO TO BE ABLE TO SAY I'M IN LOVE AND AM BEING LOVED FEELS FANTASTICALLY AMAZING! UGH, I'M STARTING TO ANNOY MYSELF WITH MY SUGAR COATED SWEETNESS...
WELL, ENOUGH OF THAT...JUST BECAUSE MY LOVE LIFE IS WONDERFUL, DOESN'T MEAN I STILL DON'T HAVE LOTS OF YUMMY DELISH ISH TO DISCUSS LOL...
FOR EXAMPLE, ALTHOUGH I HAVE SUCCESSFULLY KEPT MYSELF OUT OF TROUBLE FOR QUITE SOME TIME...SEEMS AS THOUGH SOME OF MY OLDER BS IS COMING BACK TO HAUNT ME. A WHILE BACK I HAD A BIT OF DRAMA DUE TO, WELL, DUE TO ME DOING THE WRONG THING. I AM A GOOD PERSON, BUT I HAVE MY FAULTS. I ALLOWED MYSELF TO FALL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE WHO, FOR LACK OF A BETTER DESCRIPTION, WAS MARRIED. OK, WHAT IT REALLY WAS, WAS THAT HE LIVED WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND AND THEY HAD A CHILD TOGETHER. BUT ANYWHO...IT'S BEEN OVER 2 YEARS AND THE FBFFWB (FORMER BEST FRIEND FOREVER WITH BENEFITS) HAS SINCE MOVED ON TO A NEW AND MORE SUITABLE RELATIONSHIP...THAT DAMN BABY MAMA IS A DISASTER! CONTROLLING, ANNOYING, AND JUST PLAIN OLD YUCK! ANYWAY, THIS OLD BS HAS RECENTLY RESURFACED!!! HOW??? I DON'T KNOW!!! ALL I KNOW IS THIS MAD COW HAS TRIED TO START A DAMN FACEBOOK WAR WITH ME! WHEN I DON'T EVEN HAVE HER ON FB! MATTER OF FACT, I'VE BEEN INFORMED, SHE'S BLOCKED ME FROM FB! I HAVE NO CLUE AS TO WHY SHE WOULD FEEL THE NEED BEING THAT I WASN'T EVEN AWARE SHE HAD A FB ACCOUNT (BUT OF COURSE, WHO DOESN'T HAVE ONE I SUPPOSE) ALL I KNOW IS, THE FBFFWB TOLD ME HOW SHE WAS WRITING A BUNCH OF BS ON HER STATUS' ABOUT ME. I KNOW HOW CHILDISH THIS SOUNDS, TRUST ME I DO. I JUST ALSO FIND IT SUPER AMUSING WHEN OUR "SITUATION" OCCURRED SO LONG AGO. SHIT, THE DUDE HAS MOVED ON TO THE NEXT WOMAN! AND YET, SHE CONTINUES TO HARASS ME AND DISCUSS ME ME FROM AFAR, AT A VERY SAFE DISTANCE LOL...NOW DON'T TAKE THAT TO IMPLY THAT I AM PRONE TO VIOLENCE, BECAUSE I AM NOT. HOWEVER, I CAN UNDERSTAND THE DESIRE TO DO SO...I'VE COME TO TERMS WITH THE FACT THAT NOT EVERYONE IS AS EVOLVED AS I MYSELF AM, LOL. HEY, IT HAPPENS!
THAT'S JUST ONE STORY, I HAVE A MILLION OF'EM LMAO...BUT I DO HAVE THINGS TO DO, SO I WILL END THIS POST ON A POSITIVE NOTE...
LIFE IS A BLESSING, EVERYDAY YOU LIVE IS ANOTHER CHANCE AT FINDING YOUR TRUE HAPPINESS...DON'T MISS OUT ON THE OPPORTUNITY TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED ;-)
TIL NEXT TIME MY LOVERLIES ~HUGS N BESITOS~
WELL, WELL, WELL...SEEMS I'VE BEEN M.I.A. FOR MUCH TOO LONG. HOW THE WORLD AND I HAVE CHANGED SINCE LAST I POSTED! LET ME START BY SAYING, HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO....LOL
SO ALTHOUGH I HAVE BEEN GONE, PLEASE KNOW, MY LIFE HASN'T STOPPED BEING LIVED. SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED IN LA VIDA JANE. FOR ONE, I AM CURRENTLY HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE AND IN A BEAUTIFUL, LOVING AND VERY SEXUALLY ACTIVE, COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP! PHEW, THAT WAS A MOUTHFUL LOL...BUT IT'S TRUE...WE'VE BEEN DATING SINCE END OF FEBRUARY, BEGINNING OF MARCH...AND BECAME OFFICIAL IN JULY...I LOVE HER LIKE A FAT CHICK LOVES CHOCOLATE!!! AND I'M A FAT CHICK SO TAKE MY WORD FOR IT, WE LOVE CHOCOLATE! LOL.
I KNOW THAT NOBODY GIVES A CRAP ABOUT PEOPLE IN GOOD RELATIONSHIPS, ALL ANYBODY WANTS TO HEAR ABOUT IS THE DRAMA AND THE CHAOS SURROUNDING OTHER PEOPLE'S LIVES BECAUSE IT MAKES THEM FEEL BETTER ABOUT THEMSELVES. HOWEVER, THE FACT IS, I'M IN A TERRIFIC RELATIONSHIP. IT TOOK ME A VERY LONG TIME TO SAY THAT. SHIT, I DON'T THINK I'VE EVER SAID IT ABOUT ANY RELATIONSHIP I'VE BEEN IN (WELL, AFTER THE 1ST 4 MONTHS THAT IS, EVERYONE KNOWS THAT'S THE HONEYMOON TIME FRAME) THUS FAR. SO TO BE ABLE TO SAY I'M IN LOVE AND AM BEING LOVED FEELS FANTASTICALLY AMAZING! UGH, I'M STARTING TO ANNOY MYSELF WITH MY SUGAR COATED SWEETNESS...
WELL, ENOUGH OF THAT...JUST BECAUSE MY LOVE LIFE IS WONDERFUL, DOESN'T MEAN I STILL DON'T HAVE LOTS OF YUMMY DELISH ISH TO DISCUSS LOL...
FOR EXAMPLE, ALTHOUGH I HAVE SUCCESSFULLY KEPT MYSELF OUT OF TROUBLE FOR QUITE SOME TIME...SEEMS AS THOUGH SOME OF MY OLDER BS IS COMING BACK TO HAUNT ME. A WHILE BACK I HAD A BIT OF DRAMA DUE TO, WELL, DUE TO ME DOING THE WRONG THING. I AM A GOOD PERSON, BUT I HAVE MY FAULTS. I ALLOWED MYSELF TO FALL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE WHO, FOR LACK OF A BETTER DESCRIPTION, WAS MARRIED. OK, WHAT IT REALLY WAS, WAS THAT HE LIVED WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND AND THEY HAD A CHILD TOGETHER. BUT ANYWHO...IT'S BEEN OVER 2 YEARS AND THE FBFFWB (FORMER BEST FRIEND FOREVER WITH BENEFITS) HAS SINCE MOVED ON TO A NEW AND MORE SUITABLE RELATIONSHIP...THAT DAMN BABY MAMA IS A DISASTER! CONTROLLING, ANNOYING, AND JUST PLAIN OLD YUCK! ANYWAY, THIS OLD BS HAS RECENTLY RESURFACED!!! HOW??? I DON'T KNOW!!! ALL I KNOW IS THIS MAD COW HAS TRIED TO START A DAMN FACEBOOK WAR WITH ME! WHEN I DON'T EVEN HAVE HER ON FB! MATTER OF FACT, I'VE BEEN INFORMED, SHE'S BLOCKED ME FROM FB! I HAVE NO CLUE AS TO WHY SHE WOULD FEEL THE NEED BEING THAT I WASN'T EVEN AWARE SHE HAD A FB ACCOUNT (BUT OF COURSE, WHO DOESN'T HAVE ONE I SUPPOSE) ALL I KNOW IS, THE FBFFWB TOLD ME HOW SHE WAS WRITING A BUNCH OF BS ON HER STATUS' ABOUT ME. I KNOW HOW CHILDISH THIS SOUNDS, TRUST ME I DO. I JUST ALSO FIND IT SUPER AMUSING WHEN OUR "SITUATION" OCCURRED SO LONG AGO. SHIT, THE DUDE HAS MOVED ON TO THE NEXT WOMAN! AND YET, SHE CONTINUES TO HARASS ME AND DISCUSS ME ME FROM AFAR, AT A VERY SAFE DISTANCE LOL...NOW DON'T TAKE THAT TO IMPLY THAT I AM PRONE TO VIOLENCE, BECAUSE I AM NOT. HOWEVER, I CAN UNDERSTAND THE DESIRE TO DO SO...I'VE COME TO TERMS WITH THE FACT THAT NOT EVERYONE IS AS EVOLVED AS I MYSELF AM, LOL. HEY, IT HAPPENS!
THAT'S JUST ONE STORY, I HAVE A MILLION OF'EM LMAO...BUT I DO HAVE THINGS TO DO, SO I WILL END THIS POST ON A POSITIVE NOTE...
LIFE IS A BLESSING, EVERYDAY YOU LIVE IS ANOTHER CHANCE AT FINDING YOUR TRUE HAPPINESS...DON'T MISS OUT ON THE OPPORTUNITY TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED ;-)
TIL NEXT TIME MY LOVERLIES ~HUGS N BESITOS~
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
NOT YOUR EVERYDAY CHICA...
OK SO I'M NOT COMPLETELY BACK ON MY GAME BUT HEY, I'M HERE NOW RIGHT? LOL...
BEING MY NORMALLY OBSESSIVE SELF...YES I AM QUITE THE VICTIM TO MY OCD TENDENCIES...I REPLAY MOMENTS OVER AND OVER AGAIN IN MY MIND AND REALIZE I COULD HAVE HANDLED A CERTAIN SITUATION DIFFERENTLY...BUT AS THEY SAY "TOO LITTLE TOO LATE" OR BETTER YET "HINDSIGHT IS 20/20"...
IT'S NOT LIKE, HAD I DECIDED AGAINST IT, THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT WOULD BE SO PROFOUND AS TO CAUSE THE DESTRUCTION OF MANKIND...BUT I MAY NOT HAVE THIS NAGGING LITTLE FEELING THAT KEEPS GNAWING AT MY INSIDES SAYING I MADE A HUGE ERROR IN JUDGEMENT...
WHO THE HELL AM I TRYING TO KID??? I WOULD HAVE DONE THINGS EXACTLY THE SAME WAY. IT WAS SOMETHING THAT I HAD BEEN DEBATING FOR QUITE SOME TIME, SOOOOOO...WHAT'S DONE IS DONE I SUPPOSE. CAN'T SAY I REGRET ANYTHING, JUST NOT IN ME TO REGRET A CHOICE I'VE MADE...JUST MAYBE TWEAKED IT A BIT.
I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M EVEN STRESSING THIS RIGHT NOW BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT IT DOESN'T CHANGE THE FACT THAT I PUT A SMILE ON 2 FACES THAT HJAVE NOT SMILED LIKE THAT IN SO LONG...TIME DOES HEAL...HMMMM
TIL NEXT TIME...XOXOXOX
BEING MY NORMALLY OBSESSIVE SELF...YES I AM QUITE THE VICTIM TO MY OCD TENDENCIES...I REPLAY MOMENTS OVER AND OVER AGAIN IN MY MIND AND REALIZE I COULD HAVE HANDLED A CERTAIN SITUATION DIFFERENTLY...BUT AS THEY SAY "TOO LITTLE TOO LATE" OR BETTER YET "HINDSIGHT IS 20/20"...
IT'S NOT LIKE, HAD I DECIDED AGAINST IT, THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT WOULD BE SO PROFOUND AS TO CAUSE THE DESTRUCTION OF MANKIND...BUT I MAY NOT HAVE THIS NAGGING LITTLE FEELING THAT KEEPS GNAWING AT MY INSIDES SAYING I MADE A HUGE ERROR IN JUDGEMENT...
WHO THE HELL AM I TRYING TO KID??? I WOULD HAVE DONE THINGS EXACTLY THE SAME WAY. IT WAS SOMETHING THAT I HAD BEEN DEBATING FOR QUITE SOME TIME, SOOOOOO...WHAT'S DONE IS DONE I SUPPOSE. CAN'T SAY I REGRET ANYTHING, JUST NOT IN ME TO REGRET A CHOICE I'VE MADE...JUST MAYBE TWEAKED IT A BIT.
I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M EVEN STRESSING THIS RIGHT NOW BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT IT DOESN'T CHANGE THE FACT THAT I PUT A SMILE ON 2 FACES THAT HJAVE NOT SMILED LIKE THAT IN SO LONG...TIME DOES HEAL...HMMMM
TIL NEXT TIME...XOXOXOX
Thursday, February 25, 2010
IT HAS BEEN SO LONG...
I KNOW I HAVEN'T ADDED A NEW POST HERE IN AGES...BUT I FELT THE NEED TO SHARE...AND SO HERE I AM...LOL
I SEE MY LAST POST WAS IN AUGUST, WOW...SUFFICE IT TO SAY...A LOT HAS HAPPENED SINCE THEN LOL
THIS SUDDEN NEED TO VENT IS BECAUSE...JANE IS BEING A BAD GIRL AND DOESN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH HERSELF...UGH!!!
I FIND MYSELF TORN BETWEEN TWO AMAZING WOMEN RIGHT NOW...ONE I'VE HAD A SERIOUS ATTRACTION FOR, WELL, FOR OVER 5 YEARS NOW...AND NOW THE CHICKEN KICKER....THE OTHER WOMAN IS HER BFF...I KNOW I KNOW WTF AM I THINKING RIGHT???? THING IS, THEY ARE BOTH AWESOME. I FIND MYSELF THINKING OF BOTH OF THEM ON A REGULAR BASIS...I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO...I HAVEN'T STARTED ANYTHING WITH EITHER OF THEM...WELL, TECHNICALLY I MESSED AROUND WITH THE FORMER IN THE PAST MORE THAN ONCE...THE ATTRACTION IS STILL THERE AND IT IS VERY STRONG...
AND NOW EVERY NIGHT, I STAY UP CHATTING WITH THE BFF TIL ABOUT 4AM...DIFFERENT KIND OF ATTRACTION THOUGH...I ADORE HER PERSONALITY AND SENSE OF HUMOR...HER DIMPLES ARE TO DIE FOR...UGH FML!!!
I DO BELIEVE I FEEL EVEN MORE CONFUSED THAN I DID BEFORE I STARTED TYPING...LOL...WOW SUX TO BE ME!!!
OK OK, I WILL TRY AND UPDATE ON A MORE FREQUENT BASIS PEOPLE...BUT YA SHOULD KNOW, IT AINT EASY OUT HERE FOR A PIMP...AND IF YOU DON'T KNOW, NOW YOU KNOW...LMAO
I SEE MY LAST POST WAS IN AUGUST, WOW...SUFFICE IT TO SAY...A LOT HAS HAPPENED SINCE THEN LOL
THIS SUDDEN NEED TO VENT IS BECAUSE...JANE IS BEING A BAD GIRL AND DOESN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH HERSELF...UGH!!!
I FIND MYSELF TORN BETWEEN TWO AMAZING WOMEN RIGHT NOW...ONE I'VE HAD A SERIOUS ATTRACTION FOR, WELL, FOR OVER 5 YEARS NOW...AND NOW THE CHICKEN KICKER....THE OTHER WOMAN IS HER BFF...I KNOW I KNOW WTF AM I THINKING RIGHT???? THING IS, THEY ARE BOTH AWESOME. I FIND MYSELF THINKING OF BOTH OF THEM ON A REGULAR BASIS...I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO...I HAVEN'T STARTED ANYTHING WITH EITHER OF THEM...WELL, TECHNICALLY I MESSED AROUND WITH THE FORMER IN THE PAST MORE THAN ONCE...THE ATTRACTION IS STILL THERE AND IT IS VERY STRONG...
AND NOW EVERY NIGHT, I STAY UP CHATTING WITH THE BFF TIL ABOUT 4AM...DIFFERENT KIND OF ATTRACTION THOUGH...I ADORE HER PERSONALITY AND SENSE OF HUMOR...HER DIMPLES ARE TO DIE FOR...UGH FML!!!
I DO BELIEVE I FEEL EVEN MORE CONFUSED THAN I DID BEFORE I STARTED TYPING...LOL...WOW SUX TO BE ME!!!
OK OK, I WILL TRY AND UPDATE ON A MORE FREQUENT BASIS PEOPLE...BUT YA SHOULD KNOW, IT AINT EASY OUT HERE FOR A PIMP...AND IF YOU DON'T KNOW, NOW YOU KNOW...LMAO
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