SECOND CHANCES???

I'VE ALWAYS BELIEVED THAT EVERYONE DESERVES A SECOND CHANCE. I'VE EVEN BEEN KNOWN TO GRANT A THIRD AND EVEN FOURTH CHANCE DEPENDING ON A GIVEN SITUATION. PEOPLE MAKE MISTAKES. THEY HURT YOUR FEELINGS. THEY FAIL TO DELIVER. IT'S HUMAN NATURE. WE ARE AN IMPERFECT SPECIES. WHAT I DON'T GET IS WHY I WOULD GET UPSET BECAUSE SOMEONE FAILED ON ME THE SECOND TIME AROUND AS WELL. I MEAN LET'S FACE IT FOLKS...THEY LET YOU DOWN ONCE, WHY WOULDN'T THEY DO IT AGAIN? RIGHT? SO WHY AM I EVEN LETTING THIS GET TO ME??? OK, I KNOW WHY...I WANTED THIS PERSON TO PROVE ME WRONG...I WANTED TO BELIEVE THAT THEY WERE EVERYTHING THEY CLAIMED TO BE. NOT SAYING THAT THEY AREN'T, JUST SAYING THEY HAVEN'T EVEN ATTEMPTED TO PROVE THEY ARE! SO I'M STUCK NOT KNOWING WHAT TO DO OR HOW TO FEEL. YES, I'M DISAPPOINTED. SO I SUPPOSE THAT IS HOW I FEEL...I DON'T KNOW. I ALWAYS END UP PUTTING TOO MUCH FAITH IN PEOPLE KNOWING THAT NO-ONE CAN BE TRUSTED TO COME THROUGH FOR YOU, BUT YOU. SO I'M LEFT WITH THE DI DI DI DUMB BITCH FACE...UGH...OH WELL.

I THINK I NEED TO EXTREME MAKE-OVER MY LIFE. OR MAYBE I JUST NEED TO REMOVE CERTAIN PEOPLE FROM MY LIFE. I DON'T KNOW. THIS IS WHY I LIVE BY "YOU GET WHAT YOU GIVE". DON'T EXPECT MUCH WHEN YOU'RE NOT WILLING OR CAPABLE OF DOING MUCH. ANYWHO...GOTTA GO...TIL NEXT TIME LOVERLIES...


XOXO
~JANE~