FINALLY...

LAST NIGHT I HAD A NICE LONG CONVERSATION WITH MY EX...AND IT WAS ACTUALLY A GOOD ONE! FOR THE FIRST TIME WE WERE ABLE TO DISCUSS WHAT WENT WRONG WITH US WITHOUT YELLING OR POINTING FINGERS. NOW DON'T GET ME WRONG, WE'VE BEEN VERY GOOD FRIENDS CONSIDERING HOW BADLY OUR RELATIONSHIP ENDED. HOWEVER, WE HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO JUST TALK ABOUT "US" WITHOUT A LOT OF TEARS AND CURSING GETTING IN THE WAY! IT FELT SO GOOD TO KNOW THAT WE ARE BOTH PASSED THE NONSENSE THAT'S BEEN HOLDING US BACK FROM BEING TRUE FRIENDS TO ONE ANOTHER. I LOVE HER DEARLY AND EXPECT HER TO BE IN MY LIFE TIL THE VERY END. SHE IS MY FAMILY. NO MATTER HOW CRAZY THE BITCH IS! LMAO...BUT SERIOUSLY, I VALUE HER FRIENDSHIP MORE THAN I EVER THOUGHT I WOULD. IT WAS SO AWESOME TO BE ABLE TO TALK TO HER ABOUT WHAT'S GOING ON IN MY LIFE WITHOUT EDITING THE MORE GRAPHIC DETAILS...NOT THAT THERE'S MUCH TO TALK ABOUT! LOL. I'M SO CLOSE TO SAINTHOOD IT'S REDONKULOUS! LOL. SPEAKING OF THE TOTAL LACK OF SCANDAL IN MY LIFE...BESIDES SOME HEAVY FLIRTING, I HAVEN'T HAD ANY REAL EXCITEMENT IN MY SO CALLED "LOVE LIFE" IN QUITE SOME TIME. I DON'T KNOW, MAYBE IT'S ME AND MY PICKINESS. MAYBE IT'S "THEM" AND THEIR LACK OF INTEREST IN ME...WHO KNOWS? ALL I KNOW IS, I NEED MORE! I'M A PRETTY COOL CHICK YO! LOL. I'M INDEPENDANT. INTELLIGENT. FUNNY. GUESS I SEE MORE IN MYSELF THAN THEY DO, LOL. WHY DO I SUDDENLY FEEL LIKE I'M ADVERTISING MYSELF LIKE THIS IS EHARMONY OR SOME SHIT?! LMAO. WAIT, THAT'S A DATING THINGY RIGHT? LOL, I DON'T EVEN KNOW! BUT I'M SURE YOU ALL CATCH MY POINT. I'M JUST TIRED OF THE BS. I WANT SOMEONE TO SEE ME FOR WHO I AM, AND JUST KNOW THAT ANYONE THAT EVER LET ME SLIP THROUGH THEIR FINGERS WAS A FUCKING FOOL!!! LOL...IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR? I DON'T THINK IT IS. BEING SINGLE HAS BEEN FUN...BUT IT'S FINALLY TIME TO ALLOW MYSELF TO OPEN UP TO MORE. WE SHALL SEE WHAT HAPPENS I SUPPOSE...

ANYWHO...YA KNOW THE DRILL...

TIL NEXT TIME...

XOXOX
~JANE~