BACK ON THE "ME" TRAIN...

IT'S LATE AND I CAN'T SLEEP! I'M ACTUALLY NOT EVEN A LITTLE BIT TIRED! HAD A GREAT NIGHT OUT WITH ONE OF MY HOMIES. CAUGHT UP WITH ALL THE GOSSIP N ALL THAT. IN DOING SO, CATCHING UP THAT IS, I STARTED REALIZING JUST HOW MUCH SHIT I'VE BEEN THROUGH IN THE LAST 6 MONTHS! HOW I'M NOT LOCKED UP IN SOME LOONY BIN BY NOW IS BEYOND ME!!! WORST STILL IS THAT IT'S MORE LIKE THE LAST YEAR! FIRST, I WENT THROUGH A VERY BAD BREAK UP. THEN I STARTED HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH MY FORMER BEST FRIEND...WHO HAPPENS TO HAVE A LIVE IN GIRLFRIEND (WITH WHOM HE HAS A CHILD). WAS THEN CAUGHT BY THIS SAME GIRLFRIEND (VIA INCRIMINATING PHOTOS)...NOT A FUN TIME PEOPLE! BEGAN DATING A COWORKER. WHO WAS GREAT. EXCEPT HE WASN'T MY BEST FRIEND...SO SUFFICE IT TO SAY, IT ENDED BADLY. HAVE PARTAKEN IN A RIDICULOUS WAR OF WORDS WITH MY EX GIRLFRIEND'S CURRENT HONEY...WELL, EX HONEY NOW...AND CURRENTLY DEALING WITH THE WHOLE "ATTRACTION" SITUATION (SEE "ATTRACTION" BLOG). I DON'T EVEN WANT TO ASK "WHAT'S NEXT?" I'M AFRAID I MAY FIND OUT!!! TO TOP IT ALL OFF, I HAVE BEEN PRACTICING CELIBACY FOR THE LAST 5 MONTHS...AGAINST MY DAMN WILL!!! LMAO! BUT BELIEVE ME, THE LIST OF PEOPLE TRYING TO END MY "NO SEX" STREAK IS BECOMING QUITE LARGE! WHICH IS JUST MAKING IT EASIER FOR ME TO SAY NO! IT'S A FUNNY PATH LIFE TAKES US ON SOMETIMES. WHEN I WAS WITH MY GIRLFRIEND, WE WERE CHEATING ON EACH OTHER. WHEN I WAS THE "OTHER WOMAN", I WAS ONLY WITH HIM. AND NOW THAT I'M SINGLE, AND HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO BE WHORING IT UP...I'M ABSTINENT!!! I AM SO FREAKIN BACKWARDS IT'S CRAZY!!! LOL...IT'S FUNNY THOUGH, HOW I DON'T REGRET ONE SINGLE MOMENT OF ANY OF THE BS I'VE BEEN THROUGH. EVERYTHING I'VE DONE AND AM NOT DOING, IS MAKING ME MORE AWARE OF WHO I AM AS A PERSON. AND FOR THE FIRST TIME, IN A LONG TIME, I'M OK WITH WHERE MY LIFE IS GOING. I'M STRONGER AND WISER THAN EVER. SO I THANK ALL OF THE PEOPLE THAT HELPED ME FIND MY WAY BACK TO ME...CHEESY? YES, I KNOW...BUT TRUE...

TIL NEXT TIME...
***BESOS***
~JANE~