IS IT STUPID TO FEEL LIKE THERE MAY BE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME FOR STILL BEING SINGLE? IT SEEMS I GET ASKED THIS QUESTION EVERYDAY... "WHY ARE YOU SINGLE?" I GIVE THE STANDARD RESPONSE, "TIRED OF THE DRAMA THAT COMES WITH BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP"...WHICH IS ABSOLUTELY TRUE. ALSO, I LIKE BEING SINGLE! I WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP FOR OVER 4 YEARS AND IT WASN'T EASY. I WAS VERY MUCH IN LOVE...BUT LOVE SOMETIMES IS NOT ENOUGH TO HOLD TWO PEOPLE TOGETHER. WE ARE GOOD FRIENDS STILL. I WILL BE HERE FOR HER AS LONG AS SHE NEEDS ME. AND YES, I DID ATTEMPT A COUPLE OF RELATIONSHIPS SINCE THEN. HOWEVER, I KNEW I WASN'T READY TO GIVE MY ALL TO SOMEONE ELSE. SO WHY PUT A PERSON THROUGH THAT UNNECESSARILY? I STILL FEEL A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF GUILT FOR THE LAST GUY I DATED...HE FELL IN LOVE AND I DID NOT. IT WAS A VERY DIFFICULT SITUATION FOR US BOTH. I NEVER INTENTIONALLY SET OUT TO HURT ANYONE...BUT I HURT HIM VERY MUCH. THANKFULLY HE HAS FORGIVEN ME AND WE ARE FRIENDS AGAIN. MAINTAINING MY FRIENDSHIPS IS SO IMPORTANT TO ME. I HAVE A BIG HEART AND A BIG ASS SMILE! I LOVE TO SHARE IT! YEA, MAYBE I'M CORNY...BUT I DON'T CARE. I HAVE ALWAYS JUST BEEN MYSELF...WHETHER IT BE HAPPY, BITCHY, IN YOUR FACE...I AM WHO I AM, AT ALL TIMES! DAMN, THAT SOUNDED ALL POPEYE EMPOWERED N SHIT! LMAO. JOKES ASIDE, I CAN'T EVER PORTRAY MYSELF AS ANYTHING OTHER THAN ME. IT'S NOT IN ME TO BE PHONY. FAKE ASS PEOPLE SUCK SWEATY BALLZ! AND I REFUSE TO BE ONE! DAMN, I THINK I JUST ANSWERED MY OWN QUESTION...THERE AINT SHIT WRONG WITH ME!!! I'M JUST A GROWN UP AND HAVE TO GET USED TO IT, LOL. I SUPPOSE IT DOES TAKE A CERTAIN LEVEL OF MATURITY TO KNOW WHEN TO SAY WHEN. SO FOR FUTURE REFERENCE, TO ANYONE INTERESTED IN THE ANSWER...I'M NOT SINGLE CUZ THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME OR CUZ I'VE BEEN DAMAGED BEYOND REPAIR...IT'S JUST MY TIME TO BE ALONE. AND REMEMBER FOLKS, ALONE IS NOT SYNONYMOUS WITH BEING LONELY. I AM BY NO MEANS LONELY. I AM ACTUALLY ENJOYING THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. IT FEELS GOOD TO HAVE FREEDOM...BUT DON'T GET ME WRONG, IF SOMEONE CATCHES MY ATTENTION...MY GOOD GIRL SIDE WILL AUTOMATICALLY BE REINSTATED! LOL...HONESTY AND TRUST IS KEY! SO TIL NEXT TIME BABYLUVS....
YA TU SABE...
~JANE~
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